AT FIRST LIGHT


be still my heart

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

my heart is not lonely or broken

is not of ice or of gold

nor has my heart ever spoken

to me when a love has grown cold

 

I felt not the faintest flutter

when you brushed my cheek as you passed

nor will I willingly clutter

my life with these things that don’t last

...

be still my heart

my heart be still

...

if our eyes should meet then so-be-it

no need to trouble a heart that’s hidden

where no-one can free it

only to tear it apart

...

be still my heart

my heart be still

...

beware, beware, beware

take care, take care

...

be still my heart

my heart be still

...

There´s always a first time

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

never been one for devil-may-care

painting the town or letting down hair

oh so wary of building on dreams

afraid to discover all’s not what it seems

 

there’s always a first time

how do I know for sure

now is not mine

tell me how I know

it’s safe to just let go...show me

some sign

...

there’s always a first time

how do I know that you

are the right one

show me how to lose

those nagging doubts and choose

not run

...

let me then awake to find

I’ve left all caution far behind

in the past

let my heart be fit to burst

with a longing unrehearsed

let it last

...

there’s always a first time

let it be now and you

be that someone

who can help me leave in the hands of fate

what we’ve begun

...


Now and then

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

now and then behind the rows

of pearly teeth and fashion clothes

she sees them in the mirror-tiles

trying on their latest smiles

light and warmth from spotlight beams

convincing them their nightmare is a dream

 

now and then when they’re at rest

flocked in sleep in cuckoo’s nests

feeling safe no need to hide

she opens doors and windows wide

and poised upon her painted claws

she stretches out her gaudy wings and soars

...

no one to say.. too low....too high

or count the lonely miles she has flown

far away borne by the wind

she roams the sky

this world is hers alone

...

but then again behind the rows

she feels the piercing looks of those

who watch her every move in case

she happens to forget her place

who sum her up....deny her flight

aim their words and shoot her down on sight

...

no one to say ..too low....too high

or count the lonely miles she has flown

far awayborne by the wind

she roams the sky

this world is hers alone

...

So sorry for your love

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

it’s as plain as the nose on your face

nobody can deny

that Sorrow must find its rightful place

but why am I so sorry for your love

 

I could write you a book on Regret

none of it would apply

the answers would all be there...and yet

not why I am so sorry for your love

...

I need hardly mention

the very best intentions

pave the road to you-know-where

downhill from the start

it will grieve the caring heart

to know that it has sown despair

 

I would give my whole world to return

be at the start knowing why

it had to end this way...and maybe learn day by day

just why I am so sorry for your love

...

I need hardly mention

the very best intentions

pave the road to you-know-where

downhill from the start

it will grieve the caring heart

to know that it has sown despair

 

I would give my whole world to return

be at the start knowing why

it had to end this way...and maybe learn day by day

just why I am so sorry for your love

...


At first light 

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

long before I’d opened up my eyes

I felt a heavy day was coming on

there outside my window leaden skies

filled the space where once the sun had shone

 

the wind is howling though it’s just a breeze

bending me and all that’s in it’s way

breaks my will and brings me to my knees

tells me I can’t take another day

...

you’re out of sight not out of mind

survived the night only to find

you’re out of sight not out of mind

you helped me see then robbed me blind

...

the summer’s day now brings me Winter’s frost

the seasons are all one and time stands still

I search for something that has not been lost

to help me climb this never-ending hill

 

I wander through a landscape cold and bare

where all that I once knew has turned to stone

there is no living thing to hold me there

no voice to tell me I am not alone

...

you’re out of sight not out of mind

survived the night only to find

you’re out of sight not out of mind

you helped me see then robbed me blind

...

Keep on backing losers

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

...

I keep on backing losers

the beggars not the choosers

ahahahahah….

I keep on backing losers

the beggars not the choosers

ahahahahah….

...

how come they always find me

turn my head and blind me

with tales of how they need to start anew

they feed but never feed me

I just cater for the needy

tending broken hearts is what I do

...

I keep on backing losers

the beggars not the choosers

ahahahahah….

but I’m no longer buying

the sobbing and the sighing

ahahahahah…

...

I’m through with playing Sister-

of –Mercy to the misters

who tell me that they’re so misunderstood

and that being with me’s giving

them the strength to go on living

and that I alone can make them feel so good

 ...

I keep on backing losers

the beggars not the choosers

ahahahahah….

but I’m no longer buying

the sobbing and the sighing

ahahahahah

...                                                                 

years……of stroking heads and drying tears

of being there to calm their fears

I’ve had enough I’m steering clear….clear….clear…clear                   

...

I keep on backing losers

the beggars not the choosers

ahahahahah….

but I’m no longer buying

the sobbing and the sighing

ahahahahah

...


JAPANESE BLUE

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

can’t count the hours

blame the miles

and say they keep me

from your smile

for you are here

no oceans lie

between my lover’s arms and I

 

I see your smile

but where are you

why don’t you dare

to need me too

I’d bring you joy

to light the way

a ray of sun

to thaw your days

...

please let me through

I don’t ask much

but the slightest touch

of Japanese Blue

I beg of you

my life is such

it needs a touch of Japanese Blue

...

I see that life

has taken toll

your shattered dreams

I can’t make whole

but let me through

and I will stay

close by your side

to comfort you

...

please let me through

I don’t ask much

but the slightest touch

of Japanese Blue

I beg of you

my life is such

it needs a touch of Japanese Blue

...

THERE´S TROUBLE BREWING

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Mike McGurk

 

there’s trouble brewing

leave what you’re doing

step out of line

no point in keeping watch

if you’re sleeping

half of the time

check out the crummy lines you’ve been saying

you’re not in some second-rate soap

...

there’s trouble brewing

leave what you’re doing

it might just pay

there’s no denying

always complying

isn’t the way

ditch all the empty games you’ve been playing

 

ain’t Life a ball

you came for the ride

and end up just learning to crawl

...

slipping and sliding’s

better than hiding

heads deep in sand

cut out the sighing

see what you’re buying

it’s in your hands

think of the bitter price you keep paying

then weigh up the value and cost

...

there’s trouble brewing

leave what you’re doing

step out of line

no point in keeping watch

if you’re sleeping

half of the time

check out the crummy lines you’ve been saying

you’re not in some second-rate soap

 

ain’t Life a ball

you came for the ride

and end up just learning to crawl

...


Lullaby to erle

Music by Silje Nergaard

Lyrics by Nils Einar Vinjor

 

mothers have woven a black velvet ocean

and spread it between the night and day shores

so that children might sleep...gently rocked by the motion

of waves beneath boats built by fathers like yours

 

with you safe aboard...by the shore we will linger

and watch as your breathing it fills up the sail

you loosen the moorings..your grip on our finger

and leave on the velvet a silvery trail

 

alone on the shore with our hearts close to breaking

we stand in the wake as you glide from our reach

calmed by the thought that the voyage you’re taking

will bring you at dawning back safe to this beach

 

we cannot sail with you....be there to guide you

or pilot your boat through the black of the night

but no ocean can keep you...no darkness can hide you

away from our love and its undying light


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